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just needed to cry

Sometimes, I just need to cry. The pain is sometimes overwhelming, and there is nothing I can do but cry. I don't believe that it's unhealthy, he is my son after all.

I've been feeling that I go through the days as if he never existed, so I remind myself...I have three children, it's just that one of them is in heaven. I don't talk to my husband about it, not because it hurts too much, but because he doesn't talk to me about it. On the outside, it seems no one knows. To others, I'm just a mother of two beautiful little girls, they don't know about my beautiful boy.

He would've been about 8 months old now, but he was given eternal youth. I miss him so much. I want another child, but at the same time, it feels like if I have another one, I would be betraying my son. I was gazing at his picture on my laptop background, and it seemed that he was just sleeping in complete peace. I was imagining his back moving smoothly in gentle respiration of sound sleep. I imagined him alive with a sense of security and happiness, me stroking his back lovingly with a warm motherly glow of love radiating from my face.

He is so perfect to me, do I even deserve another child?

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