My Son,

My love for you will never die.  I want you to know that I have not given up on the aspirations I had for you and the girls.  I will continue to work towards getting a home, and educating your sisters from home.  I will continue too strive to make your father happy.

My soul was not made to serve me, but to serve the ones I love.  I was given a capacity to love that is amazing, I just did not realize it till I lost you.  I long to have one last child, and I pray everyday from morning to night that the time for that will arrive soon.  It is a decision I want to leave in the hands of the Lord, but the Lord seems to want the decision to be in the hands of your father.

One day, I will see you again, but for now I am needed here.  I pray that I can bring honor to your name and make you proud of me.  Since the day you were conceived, you have been a blessing to my soul; despite your absence from this world, you are not absent from my heart.

Love,

Your mother.