Learning After Loss

I am supposed to post something on my blog this week.  I think I'll write about being in college online. 

I've been with Kaplan University since March 2009.  It's a decent university.  I guess I have nothing to compare it to, since I've never been in any other college; but it's pretty nice.  It took a while to get used to, but I'm making it.

Kaplan has a nice thing they do if you're in the Honor Roll.  Every term you pass with acceptable honor-rol grades, they send you a certificate.  I have at least three now.  In the aftermath of loosing my son, it's hard to get things done.  I'm more emotional than I used to be, and less focused.  I took a three month leave of absence towards the end of my pregnancy, so I would have ample time to become accustomed to having three children.

The Lord had other plans and it turned out the leave of absence was still just as necessary.  After three months away from such a rigourous education schedule, however, it's hard to adjust.  I go in and out of keeping a to do list and schedules, and things have been "last minute."  I know I will get back on track, but it will take time.  My goal for this term is to pass with grades that maintain my status as an Honor Roll student.

I feel overwhelmed a lot though.  I have house-hold duties, two active children, a husband, a cat, and work.  Then there is coursework.  It has been so hard this week to have to tell my children I have to do school work instead of play.  I've also been sick this week and there were two days where I could not do anything.  My husband had to stay home from work because I couldn't even care for my girls.

Now it's a rush to get two projects done, discussion boards, and prepare for the next unit.  I also have to fit in a work-out routine, in order to keep my promise to Link.